Happy Birthday MAMA!

Mom, I hope your day was super special today! It is so hard being without you down here, I wish I could be there for everyone of your birthdays like you are for mine. And I hope I can do that for my kids like you have! You are such an amazing mother, did you know that? I hear a lot of times that moms get discouraged and let down by their kids, but even when I do that to you, I hope you always know deep in your heart that you are more than I could EVER ask for, and I am so blessed to have you as MY mother! I love talking to you everday and I don't know where I would be if I didn't have you there to answer (or not) those six times a day when I need you to make me smile. I love spending time with you and I just never seem to want to leave whenever I am with you. Thanks for being such a great mom these 21 years to me. Dad, John, David, Wendy, Sandi, me, Mitsy, Ginger, and Tyson are so blessed to have you in our lives and setting such a great example everyday! Happy Birthday ol Lady! I love you with all my heart!

Wiggin Out

This past saturday was my last function of my Harding career! It was called "Wiggin Out with Iota Chi". It was hilarious. We were all suppose to wear a wig (which most didn't). But last minute, I got mine at a flea market nearby. I really loved it, however, it was really crimpy and so I called up my African friend and borrowed his gangster clothes. It fit the wig. I had too. I had his huge jeans on, a "Brooklyn" 2 XL shirt and a silver chain. They loved dressing me up, and surprisingly I loved dressing up too. My date "J Willy" wore a mullet and combat boots with his shorts and t-shirt. We were a sight for sore eyes, and the life of the party. Had there been a competition (which there usually is) we would have won by a landslide. We missed the hayride because my britches kept falling down and I couldn't run, but we did roast a few hot dogs and caught up with my fellow Iota Chiers. There is nothing going on with J Willy (for those who are getting some idea stuck in their head). He's just a friend! But we had an awesome time and I'm so sad I wont get to do that again!

My Better Book

I've been hearing so many inspiring things lately, and sometimes it just gets too much to handle. Every morning I wake up and say to myself "Brenda, you are going to better yourself today" and I try and focus on something inspiring one of my friends said or from something I had prayed about the night before. However, as the day progresses on, I tend to forget how I was going to be better. So, consequently, it never happens. I'm still the same ol Bren I was last night. My memory just seems to be failing me lately on these inspiring quotes. It was time I did something about it. I made myself a "Better Book". I decided that whenever I feel down, like crying, like slitting someone's throat, or even maybe a little too overly good about myself... I can reflect on my Better Book. I've been writing things down to make me feel better about myself, inspire me, and remind me of things I too often forget. For example, lately, I am constantly reminding myself that God makes everything in my life happen for a reason. Sometimes, that doesn't always stick to me, so I need to read it back to myself. I get so discouraged and down, but I need to understand that that is what is making me a better person. Also, I was at work one day thinking about how most all of my friends have betrayed me and I just wish I could find a few that I could fully rely on...that was as perfect as me. Then it hit me...what if I am the bad friend? It seems to be an ongoing battle for me to find the right group of those who will love me as much as I love them, so I decided that it was time for me to step up and "be the person I look for in others". Not the girl that talks about her best friends behind their backs, or the girl that says "wow, I would never date him", but the girl that I crave in my other friends. The past few days I have really focused on that. Can I just say that it has been wonderful? God is truely blessing me and it makes me cry to see what I've missed out on. Another thing that has really helped me is rewarding myself. When I'm proud of something I did or said no too, I go buy something or give myself a piece of cake (or three). Perhaps this isn't what a credit counselor would say, but it sure has worked for me. It makes me appreciate myself and the grounds I can now stand. My Better Book has helped me out so much lately, and I just hope and pray that someday I'll make the difference I've always wanted too!

Another one bites the dust

Many of you seem to be concerned with my date with Adam. Well, to prevent my anger from resurfacing every time, I must tell you that it did not happen. On Friday (the night before our date), I received a facebook message from him saying, "Yeah, 7:00 sounds great. You keep referring to this as a date, I could be wrong, but I just thought we were going as friends. LOL. After all, you did ask ME. I'll see you tomorrow!" WELL!! Little does he know that NO one says that to Brenda. Oh no, no, no. Could I have been any more embarrassed? Not only did I NOT refer to it as a date (at least to him, but yeah, maybe to the rest of the world) except for "um, I can't think of anything to do, I haven't been on a date in what seems like years." Thats it! So, I have no idea where he got the whole 'keep referring this as a date thing'. Then little Adam got a taste of his own medicine because no way was I going out with a guy who talked to me like that! Saturday morning I responded, "Sorry, I dont think I'm going to make it tonight. See ya around." Ha. That will teach 'em.